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Thursday, March 30th, 2006
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3:33 am - Quote of the Day
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and by Day I mean Middle of the Night:
"and God knows, I am incapable of hearing 'Gold Digger' without dancing around and waving my arms in the air in a manner which implies that I simply do not care"
I love you, Go Fug Yourself.
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| Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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10:24 am - Rarely do these, but...
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- There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Amy orbiting the Earth.
- The International Space Station weighs about 500 tons and is the same size as Amy.
- A Amyometer is used to measure Amy!
- If you cut Amy in half and count the number of seeds inside, you will know how many children you are going to have.
- Koalas sleep for 22 hours a day, two hours more than Amy.
- It can take Amy several days to move just through one tree.
- Amy is incapable of sleep.
- If you chew gum while peeling Amy then it will stop you from crying.
- You share your birthday with Amy.
- Amyolatry is the mindless worship of Amy!
They were just too awesome. Amyometer! Amyolatry! Worship me!
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10:15 am - Oh frabjous day!
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| Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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1:49 pm
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12:35 am
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For every good, a bad. Or something. Yesterday was fucking brilliant, which of course didn't make it on here because there's a cosmic rule about happy lj posts. Or something. And somehow the knowledge that this is probably just withdrawal effects from switching goddamned medicines? That this distress is not "real"? That it isn't justified, my feelings about myself are untrustworthy? It doesn't help.
Sometimes I like to talk about how I think there was never such a thing as a ne'er-do-well, and that that is why people percieve this age as an insane, over-diagnose-y, everyone-has-to-have-a-disorder society; I think we're actually juust getting around to trying to understand the ne'er-do-wells, who sure as fuck weren't happy that way anyway.
Then again, sometimes I just think it's a bunch of excuses, ADD is an excuse I use to evade responsibility for the fact that I just can't hack it in the "real world" (or any world), and ne'er-do-well?
Is more of a prophecy.
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| Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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4:19 pm
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| Thursday, November 17th, 2005
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2:43 pm - I plan to put this behind a cut as soon as I can figure out how to make one with the online updater
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Alright. This entry is important. I guess I have to hope that it'll be important because in writing it I will somehow find a clear answer to my question, though, because my usual "can I just get other people to tell me what they think?" approach probably isn't the best one for momentous life decisions. On the other hand, what could be better than the opinions of people with actual life experience? Also, er, I notice I've been friended by some people who I look up and potentially semi-revere for their wisdom (such as, say, Weds, Eric and larksilver), so if those people are reading this and have any thoughts, I'd be very, very grateful.
( Man, this got really long. But it is important to me, so, you know, if you have a minute, I'd appreciate thoughts. )
current mood:  distressed
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| Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
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12:16 pm
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So this is it: we leave tomorrow!
Ryan and I are driving to Michigan!
I'm pretty sure a couple of y'all (JCMUers) have this name on your lists, so I hope you see this and could you maybe tell people please? I don't have everybody's contact info. We'll be at MSU from Thursday to Sunday (driving back Sunday). I really want to see people!
I'm so excited! (You can tell 'cuz of the exclamation marks)
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| Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
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7:26 am
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Also, I've been putting off doing this, but I probably ought to just do it. A week ago Kuni put up a brief post intended to communicate simply that we are not currently dating. That was true, and still is, but the way he explained it was, I felt, significantly unfair to me. What is more, in order to ever rectify the impression it would give to all of our mutual friends, I would need to divulge a great many details about our personal lives that I really didn't particularly want to publish on the web, nor did I much like the idea of having 50 private interviews so that all the people whose opinions I respect would have a more complete understanding of what happened. When I saw his post, I immediately approached him about it (technically, IMed him) and explained the impression it would give and why I felt it was unfair (only in somewhat more impassioned language, I'll admit). He immediately apologized and offered to take it down (and did). I think this was very sweet and generous of him--unsurprising, really, given he's a very sweet and generous guy.
For those who saw the post: it may be difficult to imagine how, but try to believe that it is possible for the truth to be far more complicated than was presented. I was so gobsmacked when I saw the post that I actually burst into tears to think that that would be the version passing into circulation. Kuni has admitted that there was some "spin" let into the account, but I'm not actually mad at him for posting it, because he really didn't realize how it would come off, and that capacity for social dumbness is part of what we all love about him.
So. If you hate me now and don't care what I have to say, then there's nothing I can do about that. If you'd like one of those private interviews because the whole thing sort of boggles you or you're wondering what I could possibly have to say, I can probably do my best, although I reserve the right to decide not to share and to live with the consequences of whatever strained relationship I have with you.
Now hopefully I won't look at this tomorrow, realize it's horribly unjust to Kuni and have to take it down. That'd just be sad :).
current mood:  discontent
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| Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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6:30 pm - Holy shit, I'm posting!
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I have a thought. Before you agree or disagree with the conclusions I head for, take a moment to occupy the metaphor and then see if it feels like it’s giving you anything.
Classical and rap. They’re the first two examples of wildly different musical genres that I thought of, and they work for this because it would be a largely uncontroversial assertion to claim that a big fan of one is not likely to be into the other. Is this because, as many have alleged, classical music is boring? Is it because, as others in somewhat more socially credible or culturally respected positions have stated, hip-hop and rap in general are trash, not art, utter shit? I submit (I’m sure you’re very surprised): neither. I think that a fan of classical music is somewhat like a person who loves to look at all kinds of beautiful earrings. Let’s say, then, that hip-hop songs are like pictures of women with beautiful hair. No matter how intricate or beautiful the hairstyle, the classical fan still says, “Wait a minute, her ears aren’t even pierced. This sucks.” Let’s say that that person, like I did once, starts to actually listen to hip-hop/R & B (I know I’m genre-hopping, don’t get in the way of my generalizations). The songs start to differentiate in your mind. No one’s ears may be pierced, but you still find this one hairstyle really pretty, and the thing someone else did with their hair was just really clever. After a while, you don’t really care that these pictures aren’t showing earrings. You’re not listening for earrings. When you see a picture with great earrings, you’ll still like it, maybe even more than you ever will the hair pictures, because it’s really what you loved first and reminds you of all the earrings you fell in love with way back when. But you find eventually that you can appreciate both, and the way I see it, that leaves you able to enjoy twice as many pictures as you could before.
(I know this whole post is written as if someone is specifically reading/going to respond to/likely to care about it, but I'm aware of and fine with the fact that that is by no means certain)
current mood:  bouncy
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| Sunday, December 19th, 2004
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9:35 pm
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It's official.
My brother is a TINY ROCK GOD.
Sitting here listening to him play the opening of Crazy Train... with the guitar behind his head, fuckin' Hendrix-style.
My brother has fallen in love with music, it loves him right back, and I couldn't be happier. Woo! He's asking for a Fender Strat for Xmas.
Sigh. This is totally not gonna make him less popular with the ladies.
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| Saturday, November 13th, 2004
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10:23 pm
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This is really adorable. I know not everyone will agree, so if it pisses you off, I'm sorry, but I'd also prefer not to hear about it.
Make sure to look at the recent ones which have responses from people in other countries. Very sweet.
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| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
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1:04 pm
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I am experiencing most of the negative emotions in the human reportoire right now, such as anger, sorrow, pain (i.e. hurt feelings) and bitterness. I'm going to vent below, but I beg of you, please, please, please don't read it if you know I disagree with you, because I'm going to say stuff that I don't really believe in my right mind and I really don't want to hurt anyone but I'm posting it because if you do agree with me, it may be therapeutic to read. IT IS IRRATIONAL VENTING, NOTHING MORE.
Okay, now that I've put the warning up:
( Only click here if you're not going to be hurt--CONTAINS POISONOUS BILE )
current mood: devastated
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| Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
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7:35 pm - WARNING: PROBABLY ONLY THIS FUNNY TO OTHER LIBERALS
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<[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<certain [...] didn't>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <<Certain things Bush did I think a better debater could have pulled off--like the whole "bin Laden does not set American policy" line. Someone like Reagan could have really sold that line, but with Bush, it just sounded like he didn't understand that when you fight an enemy, you should take into account the enemy's strengths and weakenesses when developing strategy.>>
What Bush 43 failed to grasp is that if someone is calling you the Great Satan, that's not the time to go trick or treating with horns and a tail.
--Poster on a Firefly board
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3:54 pm
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I picked people kind of at random, it lets you select twelve, but oh-so funny what it gave me!
current mood:  silly
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| Thursday, September 30th, 2004
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10:40 pm - Kerry 1, Bush 0
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Wow... Bush just got his ass kicked from here to... well... Texas.
::waves flags of happiness and real patriotism::
(just my perception, and skewed, of course, by my experiences and assumptions)
Also, Bush looks like a bit of a moron debating Kerry... who's for a debate drinking game? Take a shot every time you hear the phrase "mixed messages!"
current mood:  pleased
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| Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
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2:55 pm
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Note to myself:
DO NOT LET ME STOP SEEING MY THERAPIST. IT IS JUST NEVER A GOOD IDEA AND MAKES ME CRAZY.
She makes me happy. I am an idiot for not having talked to her since May.
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| Monday, September 13th, 2004
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3:12 pm
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It's been so long and life has been good enough that the urge to self-injure is a mere ghost of an impulse, instantly tagged irrational and put away, but it still rises on occasion. Perhaps it even serves a function, because those "occasions" I then recognize for what they are: times when I am seeking some alternate way to cope with life, to halt the intensity and soothe the chaos. I open the floor for suggestions at these times (in my head) but other than the ghost whispering "cut" and the tiny, demented, malnourished urchin in the corner who has never yet gotten anyone to listen seriously to his idea, "make it all stop forever," there's a pretty deafening silence. Which is pretty much how I feel at these times: deafeningly silent. I'm transfixed by the activity in my head, but it's all random, like a stampede. Sometimes it's not so bad--I latch onto something that leaps out as a sensible activity and bite the bullet for the pain of just continuing to slog on. When the difficulty of the slogging is more than I can manage, I'll do something like go to sleep and hope the storm passes or find Kuni and try to become infant and empty in his very comforting arms. Maybe not infant, but--simple. I become simpler with him giving me permission to stop worrying, and it's a temporary fix but a good one (and a hell of a lot healthier than some coping mechanisms). The problem is, they're all temporary fixes--the only permanenet solution (okay, aside from the little deranged voice's answer, which is not so much a solution) is changing myself, and while that's all well and admirable, rescung oneself from drowning would be a pretty neat trick. To torture the metaphor, one needs to learn to swim in order to thus save oneself, but no one starts learning to swim with no aids, floaties or shallow end to hang out in (obviously, I need little neon "floaties of life"). In the meantime, these "occasions" come back, and back, and always afterwards there's a mess to clean up, like the responsibilities I've dodged, the people I've neglected, all the new work created by skipping class, not cleaning the room, not eating.
This post has no conclusion.
current mood:  weird
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| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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7:06 pm - DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!
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Two new guests have been added for DragonCon...
(the actors who play)
CAPTAIN MALCOLM REYNOLDS AND JAYNE COBB!
It now rocks, correspondingly, THREE TIMES AS MUCH.
current mood:  jubilant
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